So I'm entering the world of blogging once again. I'm unsure what I want to accomplish with this, but I do want a place to chronicle my life as a new mommy as well as a place to jot down my thoughts.
Being a mom is a lot harder than I ever imagined. It's not only an up-at-dawn job; it's an up-at-every-other-hour-with-a-very-hungry-baby. But it's also very rewarding. I've never known a love like how I love my daughter. It's amazing to wake up from a bad dream and be able to hug her, which was the case this morning. I had pretty much my first scary dream about Sadie. And it was the more reassuring thing this morning to wake up and hold her close.
Today is a big day for me as it's the first time I'm leaving Sadie with someone. It'll only be for a couple of hours, but it's a milestone as I've only ever left her once, and that was with Greg. Today she'll be visiting Jamie while I go to the dentist. I'm hoping this will help reduce my separation anxiety, as school starts in less than a month and I will be without Sadie all day long. I'm feeling incredibly apprehensive about this. Yet, I don't want to give up my job. So, now I have to find a balance between both being a mom and having a job. Every time I think about returning to school, the Clash lyrics (Should I stay or should I go?) pop into my head and I begin the never-ending loop of second-guessing my decision to continue to work.
Time to end this as Sadie has finished her nap. She certainly rules the house now!
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